Being at Home
My 20-year-old granddaughter, “T,” committed suicide two years ago. The recent fears about a film that has suicide at its core shows a need for R & R (Rescue and Restoring health). I’m sharing my experience with this issue and how the Three Principles of Mind, Consciousness and Thought has been significant in my own healing.
“T” and I were very close. When she moved from New York to Florida where I had relocated, I was thrilled. We were only ten minutes away from each other! This allowed us to spend more quality time together on a regular basis. Within two months, however, she decided to end her life — and we’d gone to breakfast only two days earlier.
During the first year of T’s passing, I was often plagued with gloom based on my thoughts; some of my questions were: What happened? What was she feeling? What was she thinking? Why did she do it? Why didn’t she talk to me? And of course when I thought about how my daughter, T’s mom, was coping with her own grief, a multitude of feelings erupted: confusion, guilt, constant weeping, anger, and deep sorrow.
My introduction to the 3P’s occurred while I was listening to a podcast on Hay House Radio. I became fascinated with its reputation and the healthy effect its understanding has on those who were suffering.
Having been in various forms of therapy myself during my early parenting, a toxic relationship, and devastating years of doctoral studies led me to realize that I had to make some changes. One of them was NOT to be in “stale traditional forms” of therapy for the next TWENTY years! For me, the 3P understanding was refreshing and empowering because it emphasized innate wisdom. At its core was a focus on well-being as our birthright. This has also been my practice personally and professionally. I was at home!
Of course I miss “T” immensely and often think about her; the sadness, however, doesn’t linger. I tune into the happy moments and other blessings we shared together. I’m also learning to follow the heart of my wisdom and deeply listen to my daughter, instead of attempting to impose my ideas about healing solutions upon her.
I’m honored and excited about partnering with Center for Sustainable Change. Collaborations and practices that foster well-being are vital. What greater joy is there than networking with others toward a common goal: to support the worldwide common-unity of peace, wisdom, joy, and inner strength?